waiting for God's perfect time

It's Anzac day and it's a long weekend and it's no different for me :)
It is still a boring weekend ;p

Since I'm back from the states I feel so lonely here. I wish I can be there sooner with my fiance Ivan. I know God has a purpose to bring me back to syd. And for whatever that reason is I still choose to be obedient. Another thing I realize that to enter the next step/stage of life there's a God's perfect time according to His perfect time, purpose, plan, etc..
Which sometimes make me sick of waiting, but patient is always be the key.

I wish I can negotiate with God more, and with more choices.. It's like choosing ingredients in buying sandwiches in the states.. you know how many Q's they asked when I wanted to buy ONE sandwich? 20 million Q's from type of bread, butter or margarine, type of chesses, filling, ham, the salads.. and million others Q's..
Blah.. I didnt even remember what type of bread I chose when I was about to pay..

I know God has His own reason why He send me back here from the states. No matter how unwilling I was to come back, but still I surrender myself into God's hand.
I did see a lot of things; what God has done in my whole life till today.
So much blessings I can't even contain.

So for now I have that unwilling feelings.. I have to remind myself that God has His own purpose.. I wish I could know what the purpose I'm here .. ;p

I do admit, it isn't that easy for me being parted away with Ivan. Why we have to go thru this crap LD? uhmm dunno...

One thing I know, whatever God did in the past.. just amazing.
If He could do something like that in the past, He will do (again) more amazing things now and ahead.

I know He always guide me, just like the way He assured Joshua; "..I am with you as I was with Moses." (Josh 3:7).
Yes I do know, He is with me, just exactly like the way He was with me in the past.

I only can depend on Him to go thru my days in loneliness. It is tough, but if God led me thru valley of bacca in the past, I beliv He will lead me thru (again) this time. :)